X-Roads: Why Going Back to Mainstream is Bad Idea
Decision's made, but this shall help remember why.
The main reason for going back is for progression and status. I'm judged as a high potential, a talent. That matters. I don't like being treated as unimportant. My pride is affected. But do all these still matter compared to all the negative reasons for returning to the mainstream?
I had decided to quit 2 years back. The only reason I stayed was the chance to do psychology. Now that I am doing it, and liking it, why reverse my earlier decision?
Going back to mainstream spells, first of all, stress. The constant pressure of needing to make sure everything is in tip top condition, of having to answer for things not within my span of control, of having to face up to events with huge stakes, all of which exert a toll on my physical and mental health.
Going back to the mainstream means I will face another crossroads when I retire. By then, practising psychology will no longer be a real option due to absence of training. I will have to be on the managerial path, which I don't think I enjoy. At that time in any case, I will face another fall in status.
I am 33. I have proven my worth and what I am capable of. I don’t need to prove to anyone else how good I am. I don’t need quick progression to show I am superior. I won’t like the idea of people looking upon me as unimportant, but the fact that I chose to be unimportant should serve a fair degree of consolation.
In life, every time we gain something, we often lose something else. The gains of going back to the mainstream are not worth the things that I stand to lose.
The main reason for going back is for progression and status. I'm judged as a high potential, a talent. That matters. I don't like being treated as unimportant. My pride is affected. But do all these still matter compared to all the negative reasons for returning to the mainstream?
I had decided to quit 2 years back. The only reason I stayed was the chance to do psychology. Now that I am doing it, and liking it, why reverse my earlier decision?
Going back to mainstream spells, first of all, stress. The constant pressure of needing to make sure everything is in tip top condition, of having to answer for things not within my span of control, of having to face up to events with huge stakes, all of which exert a toll on my physical and mental health.
Going back to the mainstream means I will face another crossroads when I retire. By then, practising psychology will no longer be a real option due to absence of training. I will have to be on the managerial path, which I don't think I enjoy. At that time in any case, I will face another fall in status.
I am 33. I have proven my worth and what I am capable of. I don’t need to prove to anyone else how good I am. I don’t need quick progression to show I am superior. I won’t like the idea of people looking upon me as unimportant, but the fact that I chose to be unimportant should serve a fair degree of consolation.
In life, every time we gain something, we often lose something else. The gains of going back to the mainstream are not worth the things that I stand to lose.
posted by mindofminds at
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